Waiting until...

He says he loves me, yet he'd rather be apart
He said he trusts me, just not with his heart.
I wonder all the time how could I of let this be
Why did I make the wrong choices
Why I am where I am
A love so many years, so meant to be
Now he'd rather be far away from me
I want to go back, don't know if I will
Is it doomed to fail or prevail?
I want him to know I am so sorry,
I don't want this to be the end of our story
What I was thinking, I do not know
I want my life, I want it all back
I will wait, I will continue to pray
I will hope for the day love will lead him back to me

Broken spirit

She is just a young girl with a broken spirit.
With everything to call her own.
Her beautiful marriage no longer has anything to merit.
Perceptive that she will initiate a broken home.
What will her friends say?
What will her children do?
The life she lives every day,
With false affection, if only they knew.
Her tears are many though she has never let them show.
Her smile is plastered but her eyes can only look to the floor.
She's dying to let go.
She dreads the moment that she walks through their door.
"I love you" he will say.
For her, its the same prison on a different day.
Finally she gave up, she dropped her fake smile,
As a tear fell down her cheek
And whispered to herself..
I can't do this anymore

Whose fault is it?

When a relationship of love is developed, a bond of trust is formed. There is an unspoken agreement that the two of you are committed to each other and that you will not see other people. When one of the members of this sacred bond choose to be intimate with another person, they are not only cheating their lover but they are cheating themselves as well. They are breaking their own bond of trust. In most situations, when a person cheats, it is not because of affection for a new lover. Rather, he may be searching for what is missing in his present relationship or could there be a more valid reason?

Letting go...

It's very difficult to tell someone else how to cope with this and move on.
If you can't forgive them can you at least try to put them away so to speak because the more you think about them the less you'll be able to move forward.
None of us can go back and change the past but we do have the power to control the present and the future.
I know a few who have reconciled themselves to what happened and refuse to allow themselves to be victims of their past.
One said that she has put her unhappy memories in a mental' attic' so the unhappy memories are stored away and are rarely brought out now as life has got better. She is doing well at studies and is very happy due to her strong will and positive attitude.
The other person has worked hard to get a good job and happy family life of her own and says she can only be hurt by the past if she lets it intrude on the present and she refuses to do this.
These methods have worked for them.
It is VERY difficult to forgive people who have caused us irreparable loss in the past.It would definitely hurt us every time we remember the incident on our own, or when something related is done or said.

But, we have to think ahead of this statement, and much ahead of these hurting thoughts. Even though in our mind,the question is-HOW should we forgive, actually MORE important questions are- Whether & WHY should we forgive?
The person did or said something in past, and we got hurt. Now, that person is no longer in front of us. But, we have nurtured the hurt so much that just by recalling that incident we feel miserable. Nurturing hurt can give us nothing but only unpleasantness.
The question now is, we can not change anything that has happened in the past.But, thinking about that in our present, we are neither able to enjoy our present happy moments, nor we can work efficiently.This may ruin our future!
So, the best thing for us;to live our remaining life peacefully and happily, is TO FORGIVE. This reason is LOGICAL and self explanatory.

Yes. I guarantee YOU its going to BE VERY DIFFICULT.
But, BEST solutions in life are NOT always so EASY!
We have to learn to FORGIVE, for only then would we feel much lighter at heart.

Tools of a Healthy Relationship

The Healthy Relationship are based on the belief that both partners are equal. It means that when you are with your partner

• you have fun
• you feel like you can be yourself
• you can have your own opinions and interests even if they differ from your partners

As a couple. You should,

1. Always tell the truth. You shouldn't have to lie to protect your partner. Lies only create disconnect and distance.
2. Follow through with commitments. If you say that you are going to do something, do it. If for some reason you can't, let your partner know why you can't ahead of time. Not only does this show that you respect your partner, but it also creates trust.
3. Own your emotions. If you are having a bad day, let your partner know. If you snap at your partner, apologize for it.
4. Learn from each other.
5. Appreciate yourself and your partner.
6. Make major decisions together. It is a partnership.
7. Be willing to compromise. Know how to accept change.
8. Share daily repsonsibilitie. Work as a team.
9. Support each other's goals. Believe in each other.
10. Communicate openly.

It all comes down to respect. You need to respect yourself as an individual and you need to respect your partner as an individual. You also need to respect who you both are as a couple.

Memories

I close my eyes to hide the tears
but it keeps leaking through ma eyes
i don't want you to know
that it still hurts bad..

I always heard that
memories of yesterday
might haunt you forever
But i never thought
it would be this bad..

Yesterday is past
but why cant i let go of it
why i am suffering of this pain
with the love ive lost forever
why i hurt so badly..

my life is like an open book
the pages are read day by day
knowing that an end will come
some day soon...

Better do it now while you still have the chance!

When a parent passes away, we take on a new kind of work. I am not referring to the necessary “bank balances” of filing papers or clearing out the house. I am referring to the psychological process of sorting out the seemingly impalpable experience of the death of a parent.

Initially, the process is emotionally draining as we are tossed back and forth in time reliving the good, the bad, and the confusing. At some point we begin to settle down, organize “what just happened” last month or over the last fifty-five years, and begin to extract new meaning from the experience. It is a cryptic process that only reveals itself in layers, flashes of information or forgotten data, like pieces of puzzle, we are asked to ponder and ultimately rearrange. Here are some of the pieces:

1. Loss. No matter what we thought, we were wrong. Losing a parent hurts more than we planned. We are humbled at the power of biology even in the face of distant and dysfunctional parent-child relationships.

2. Regrets. As we ruminate over our loss, we find ourselves with a laundry list of regrets, a thousand things we might have done different, better, sooner, and always with more compassion. We find ourselves longing for a “do over” and, like Lear, the chance to “get it right.”

3. Insights. Despite loss and regrets, our heats understand that the mind’s dream of perfection is fools gold. This is earth and we know that all of us suffer human endings filled with ambiguity, regrettable choices, and good intentions.

4. Stories. We are surprised to find that our lives can only be understood and explained through our stories, including the one about the loss of a parent. We are equally surprised by how important for us to tell our story even though its emphasis and meaning keep changing over time.

5. Lessons. We rediscover the real meaning of life-long learning as we come face to face with what matters the most. We know that these insights may not change our lifestyle, goals, or priorities; but they give spiritual substance and renewed meaning to our journey. It helps us feel real in a world filled of rapid and never ending transactions.